Archive for May, 2011

Reflection

Posted: 26/05/2011 in Childhood, Myself, Singapore Life

Just a year after the biggest revolution in Myanmar political history, in a very pleasant coast town which is situated in southern Myanmar, a stubborn girl was born. She is so proud of her town though she can’t speak its dialect anymore. She is too happy when she hears someone speaking in its dialect. When she was nearly 5 years old, her family moved to the former capital city of Myanmar, Yangon.

If Myeik is her heart, then, Yangon is her soul. No city in the whole universe can’t beat it in her soul. Her memories, her remembrances, her activeness, her courage, her youthful days and everything related to her life can be found there.

She is terribly bad at drawing and singing. She can’t feel paintings though she is fond of  all other kinds of art like music, movie, books, dance, photography and so on. The only thing she can draw is house! And she wanted to be an architect strongly since she was 6. Actually, she had wanted to be a teacher when she was in Kinder Garten. Since her mom absolutely denied it, she changed her mind to be an engineer, more specifically an architect. But since after a children poem got published in a famous children magazine, she wants to become a author. Yes, that’s her greatest aim in life since she was 6 that she haven’t achieved yet.

She is not intelligent enough to be in love with Mathematics. On the other hand, she possess a pretty good memory especially on her childhood. She still remembers that she has killed a fly with hand and she was playing with shit (literally) in the toilet when she was 3, she had the chance to buy something cost only 1 Kyat, she has frequently fallen to a drainage near toilet in her primary school, she has gotten injury in head just by playing with her brother and so on. And she love to think about the facts in childhood like how she treated the ants, when Myanmar TV Channels started to broadcast International series (& which is the first or the names of series & actor/actresses), which section she was in which grade, which subject in which grade was taught by which teacher and something like that.

After passing the years by raking #1 frequently in the class, possessing more than enough affection on friends, daydreaming a lot and writing a lot (She has written more than 30 short stories and uncountable poems before she was 11.), her first short story got published in a children journal. At that time, she was 13 and she still remembers the day when the editor called and woke her up with the good news that hers would be published in next issue. She got 500 kyats ($0.5) for that article. The first earning in her life! Then, continuously, her poems, stories and essays got published on that journal. She stopped writing with children sense when she was 15 thinking that she became a teenager.

Her teenager life was so so. By getting excited for Thingyan (Water Festival), reading a lot (some books were read 50+ times),  gaming a lot (since Family console to today’s PSP), watching Chinese dramas a lot (which makes her understand basic usage of Chinese) and daydreaming especially on rainy days with a mug of coffee, her life was not bad. She was fond of writing diary everday which is too funny to read it back now, too. Plus, she wrote lots of short stories but in her own note book. Few of those got published in some well-known journals & magazines. But it made her year when one of hers was published in “Shwe A Myu Tay” Magazine in 2009.

Though she started to use PC since she was about 11, she made up her mind to make her profession computing related. When everybody put doctor or engineer on their English essays, she put computer profession instead by scraificing some of her English marks because it was supposed to be against with teacher. After passing martriculation exam, she wished to join UCSY. But her mom prefered going to private computer school mentioning that UCSY is not worth attending especially when its locaiton is way too far. Then, she joined to the best university in Myanmar (recoginzed by Ministry of Education, the rector has said so though she didn’t want to believe) majoring in Japanese. That was precious moment in her life! YUFL is awesome. Plus, Japanese department is much more amazing. Cool friends and smart lectureres made it fun even though YUFL is popular of its strict & nonsense rules.

After first semester, she was enlightened by a change. It’s the  ray of light that makes her life’s meaningful, an effort that supports her every second, a pair of eyes that watch her to keep away from harm and pain, a hand that never lets her down and a passion to move on her life. Yes, it’s love and a great guy brought it into her life and lasts forever.

When she becomes a so called adult, she went to a country which is small in the sense of area and large in the sense of development. She has changed A LOT after living there for a while mostly to the bad ways. She can’t write regularly, she can’t enjoy her life to fullest and realize that her memory and language skills go down and down.

Meanwhile, she gets tons of labels because she loves Myanmar too much, talks a lot (mostly nonsense) and too active when she seriously wants something. For instances, “Queen of Debate” (She is seriously not worth to spend your time just for arguing), “Miss Talkative” (& at the same time), “Miss No-Words” (What a funny contradiction!), “Patriot” (She loves it, by the way), “Blind Nationalist”, “Racist” (For writing a travel article and attracting votes) and the latest award is “A person who wishes to destroy Myanmar Language”. She agrees all of these except the last one since it is opposite to another label called “Myanmar Language Addicted”.

After passing 22 years of human life, she made up her mind again to be original her who loves daydreaming and who enjoy writing and reading most. She is really hoping that she can do it regardless of environment, time constraint or people.

P.S This post was supposed to be published on her birthday but couldn’t make it. Thanks for reading such a long post! ^_^